Thursday, September 30, 2004
1 more day 2 go
im still waiting for my one and only
;6:37 PM
Wednesday, September 29, 2004
im still waiting for my one and only
today SS & phy
SS was crappy
wat i learnt din cum out
sobz*
was tryin 2 spot question last nite
= p
den phy was ok larz
aiming 4 b3 or a2
kekekeke
tml bio & a math
lucky fri oso a mth & bio
so gt 2 chances at aming an a
yuuppz
was lookin 4 my worksheets wen sum letters fell out
one was frm drea
den gt frm vic & maine oso
i guess last time i was a real bitch huh
no1 realli lyked mi
lol
well
at least now mi & drea r ok
vic & maine too
vic sits next 2 mii in d hall
wahhhh
see her do SScheenablah blah blah
write alot sia
den mii lehz
mii slp!!!
haha
dis fri every1 else starts exam
johntinggconssiealot more
betta work hard
we all work hard 2gether
= )
gt drenched in rain today
so now havin dis terrible headache
ahhhhhhhhhhh
slp dis afternoon
but din realli hav a good slp
den 2day realli gt slp late
gt a mth & bio 2 study
soo funni
dis morinin cum sch
everi1 talk bout wat time they slp
den i was lyk
" i slpt at 11"
haha
every1 juz gave mi tt stare
haha
but lucky i nt d worst
chin weng slpt at 9 lorz
lol
was talkin 2 johnathan last nite
was askin him bout break dancin
den he said whye tatt breaks
i went OMG
den ask whye tatt last nite
den i told him
next time he cums by s'pore he muz show mi
haha
can't believe it
hes a sk8ter and break dancer
plus he looks cute
haha
forgeddit
hes gt a gurl fren
hahaha
im 16
let mi hav sum fun
i decided
serious relationship
out
outta my lyf
nows d time 2 hav fun nt plan a weddin
yuuppz
call mi a player
mi dun realli care
im 16!!!!!!!
giv mi a break!!!!!!!
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after my Os
sam says her uncle can sneak us into china black
sam betta keep tt promise!!!
after Os
bout 1 mth 19 more days
sooo fast!!
den can play ler!!!
now tt is wat i call
MOTIVATION!!!
= )
;7:17 PM
Tuesday, September 28, 2004
im still waiting for my one and only
e math ok
betta den paper 1
den cheena was ok larz
din realli study but managed 2 fill up d paper wif words
= )
athiyahhhhhh
y wen u go nva cum look 4 mi
i miss yooooo
every1 think HE lyks mi
he doesnt
he lyks another gurl frm another skool
i agree
im crazie over him
but wat can i do
he feels nth 4 mi
net & HIM
nt possible
sumtimes i hate myself
y can't i juz b a lil' goodie-too-shoes
study hard
dun fall in love
it sucks
2 yrs ago
i met a guy
a guy who went tru ups and downs wif mi
he meant d world 2 mi
den we broke up
now im crazie over a guy
who feels nth 4 mi
nth more den fren-ship
den i hurt some1
some1 who was a realli great fren
i hurt him
i hate myself
i wanna b a good gurl
nva fallin in lurve
hav guy frens
no boy fren
tml havin SS and phy
worst combination man
both 2 mi r lyk unknown subjects
hiazzz
i betta go stardiee ler
love = pain
love = joy
i dun think im ready 4 it
;3:41 PM
Monday, September 27, 2004
im still waiting for my one and only
e math was a killer
chem ok
= )
so proud of myself 4 chem
haha
went 4 phy tution again
d teacher sucks
big time
full stop
zhi hao is juz so kawaii
[ tuion class wan. actually d only guy in d klass ]
haha
so shy
den we were talkin bout pool
din realize RI guys played pool too
haha
tml havin e math 2 & cheena
forgeddit
cheen = fail
din even study a single damn thing
athiyah!!!!!
tml no malay paper
sam!!!!!!
chi B onli 1 hr
leave mi & drea
= (
yuuppz
chramed ones r back
no more cat fights gurls
= )
athiyah
miss ya darling
haha
talkin 2 ya now*
dunno y larz
but
thanks
haha
i noe i said it alot of times ler
but still wanna thank u
yuuppz
lyf seems so much betta recently
dunno y
haha
madded*
okiez
its late
will update tml
;10:29 PM
Saturday, September 25, 2004
im still waiting for my one and only
din study much again today
lol
watched tv d whole mornin
den afternoon hao ran came over
asked him sum cheen shit
argh
wat a waste of my time
learnin sum useless stuff
den at nite
mummy daddy both go 4 dinner
which literally means no work done again
haha
juz feelin realli sianzz
was talkin 2 sum1 d whole nite
he realli put a smile on my face
i've nva realli smiled lyk tt in sum time
actually i nva realli had a conversation lyk tt wif any other guy
lol
but its impossible between us larz
i noe it
he noes it
but fret nt
im still a happie lil' gurl
john
dun give up
u still hav a long way ahead
i noe how it feels
cuz i've been treated lyk tt b4
tt was y i din noe wat 2 do
i din wan hurt u
but in d end i still did
im sorry
GUYS R BORN
2 HURT GURLS
took tt frm athiyah's blog
how true
how true
we gurls suffer in d clutches of guys
guys should b condemmed 2 d depths of dis earth
b banished frm d face of dis earth
hahaha
i noe tt's nt possible
but hey
gurls out there
dun u agree wif mi?
ok
mayb nt all guys
but majority are
lol
gt pissed wif mummy 2day
full story read bell's blog
lol
mummy juz dun understand us kids
wait
which parent actually understands their kids??
lyk drea's fren
her boyfren's mum hired a PI 2 track her son
lyk wat d hell!!
hello!!
u should respect ur son
we all hav our privacy
DUH
i guess parents r juz illterate wen it cums 2 readin laws protectin kids
they bloddy always think they r right
nva sparing a damn thought 4 their kids
if i were 2 hav kids
i would definately nt treat them lyk how my parents treat mi
it juz disgusts mi
d ways parents raise their kids
usin d cane
screamin at them
nt givin their kids privacy
i juz cant stand it
used 2 remember how my dad used 2 whack mi as i lil kid
how my mum slaped mi
ok
nth 2 b proud of
but i juz hate d way parents do things
at least 4 my parents
wat d hack man
parents
will always b our parents
they always say
"blood is thicker den water"
no matter how mean they r
we still hav 2 respect them
FILIAL PIETY
i hate d person for inventin tt damn word
;10:17 PM
Friday, September 24, 2004
im still waiting for my one and only
today 24
some1 muz b damn happy
lol
had eng & geog today
eng was easy larz
haha
had lyk half and hr 2 ZzZz
[ need 2 make up 4 time lost last nite ]
lol
den durin d break
midreasamjiraporn
went ta staircase there study
den forgot brin calculator 4 goeg
so had 2 borrow 1
guess who i brrowed frm??
john!!!
haha
thank kew
den had geog was ok larz
considerin i din realli study
sorry guys
make u all eat at mac
den i din join u all
pai sei*
sorry larz
blooby mother keep callin mi
= D
kekekeke
came hm early
wanted 2 revise physics
ended up readin da vinci code
den u should noe wat happen ler
read read read
den slp
hahaha
so practically i din do any studyin dis afternoon
feelin soo guilty
but i need slp!!!
i lurve mi slp!!!
piggy*
john...
i dunno wat ta say larz
i guess i do wan ya giv up
i kinda feel lyk im holdin ya back
i juz wan us to b frens
yuupz
frens
past few days was sci prac
so din realli see sutrisno cuz we were diff shift
saw him today
nearly knock into him summore
lol
besides tt
we juz walk pass each other
as if we din noe each other
i guess tts d best thing 2 do
well
at least 4 mi
= )
dunno him larz
i always say dis
he wan hav a ger fren
go ahead
but make sure he does it well
clear up d mess well
or nt all 3 will gt hurt
yuuppz
anyway
mi & lia r fine
a smile sure makes a whole lot of difference
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smilex
all my darlingshoney-ssweethearts
good luck 4 exams!!!
gambatte!!!
lurve u all to bits!!!
muackx*
;6:56 PM
Thursday, September 23, 2004
im still waiting for my one and only
suppose 2 slp 4 half hr
ended up sleepin 1&half hr
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
tml gt geog paper
nt yet study
smart lil' mi has been slackin d past few days
see now
................... .................... ...............
had bio prac 2day
ok larz
juz alot of drawin
my flower looks lyk crap man
haha
den 2 first part oso gt sth wrong wan
after tt went ava room
cuz today gt 3 shift so muz wait till 130
soo funni
chin weng brought resident evil 2 vcd
den we make tang lao shi brin up her laptop
so we were wachin it
be jealous all
it onli opens tml
and i watched it today
it skool summore
surround sound
big screen
muahahahaha
LAME
den drea kept screamin
hahahaha
yesterday had phy prac
crap man
d most crappy experiment i ever did
it bloody made no sense 2 mi
chem is d easiest man
mr chua u rawk!
wateva it is
its all over
now juz hav 2 concentrate on my written papers
i onli hav bout half of hr 2 study
cuz i wan watch tv at 530
den tonight gt dinner
OMG
tml dieded
lol
i realli hav 2 work man
my lyf is nt suppose 2 b lyk tt
yesterday shi yan came down
he was sayin MUZ go JC
dunno larz
if i do go JC
i mayb thinkin of CJC
but mummy keeps insistin i go ACJC
bu zhi dao larz
work hard first den talk
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;4:56 PM
Tuesday, September 21, 2004
im still waiting for my one and only
bare 4 miiii
= )
had chem prac prelim 2day
did ok larz
was spot on 4 d titration
hahaha
den after tt
hanged ard in mac
while waitin 4 shi yan
after tt went sixth ave [ venztia ]
2 study
lol.
din see him there 2day
soo sad
sunday
din go church cuz bell had tution wif hao ran
den after tt afternoon went orchard
bought da vinci code
damn good book
tryin 2 resist it
cuz if i continue 2 read it
i wun hav ta study anymore
lol
saturday
went 4 dinner
met d cutest and sweetest guy ever
name:jason
age:24
status:attached
aawwwwwwwwwwwww
if he wasn't elaines boyfren i would hav gone 4 him
lol
nth much left
juz tt dis fri is my prelims
so fast
was talkin 2 shi yan
he said go JC
nt poly
he said if can't get in good JCs den go CJC
dunno larz
anyway pass few days
feelin' so much betta
smilin at each other
tt's an improvement
haha
you dun noe mi
so dun sterotype mi
OoOoOoOoOo
lil' angel's fav phrase
yuuppz
today soo happy
sam & drea
made up
minus d kiss n make up part
haha
at least they talked 2day
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soo happy 4 them
charmed ones r back!!!!!!!!!!
yippeeeeeeeeeeee
;6:32 PM
Monday, September 20, 2004
im still waiting for my one and only
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
so fast
okok
gt go work my butt off now
anyway
2day
realli happy.
was talkin 2 some1 2day
told tt person everythin on mi mind
ps:2 my xiao mei
wo bu hui gen ni qiang de
dun worry
= )
will update tml
;10:22 PM
Saturday, September 18, 2004
im still waiting for my one and only
pic is back!!!!!!
dunno y today so happieeeeeeee
went ta skool 4 chem mock
den mr chua arrange our seats
sat next 2 kum hong
ewwwwwwwwww
lol
den i scolded him
den every1 laf
dunno larz
2day oso veri highly irritable
things look on d bright side of mi
= )
had a dream last nite
bout lia & him
hahaha
soo funni
d whole dream was bout mi & lia
tt we were good frens
we gt along well
den d whole time i juz ignored sutrisno
hahaha
woke up den kept lafin
d 1 i lurve d most turned 2 d person i hate d most
hahaha
dis proves anythin is possible
yuuppz
anythin & everythin is possible
2nite gt dinner
cuz hao ran [ my distant cousin ]
top d whole poly
so he givin every1 a treat
lol
he soo hardworkin
nt lyk mi
hahaha
gt 2 stop slackin
and start crakin
it will take time 4 mi 2 accept
but i noe i will
y concentrate on d past
it will nva come back anymore
last time
sutrisno said dis
every moment is worth rememberin
cuz it will nva happen again
i soo agree!!!!
whether d hugs & kisses
or even d shoutin & screamin
it will nt happen anymore
i should conmcentrate on mi future
concentrate on my Os
concentrate on mi prince charming
OoOoOoOoOo
onli if i had one......... ............... .......
nvm
should nt giv up
muz jian zhi xia qu!!!!
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;1:18 PM
Friday, September 17, 2004
im still waiting for my one and only
blogger sucks
my pic is gone
my previous post is gone too
argh
had eng & chi paper1 2day
was nt soo bad larz
except i dun think i can ace my eng compo dis time
= (
gt scolded last nite
wateva
u dun noe mi
so dun sterotype mi
= )
yuuppz
it will take some time 4 mi 2 accept it
but i will
went out wif athiyah 2day
she wanted ask mr chua chem quest
den she drag mi out too
at least i managed 2 study
out of d comfort of my own room
hahaha
tml gt chem mock
so i hav ta go skool
= (
mr chua
y can't we get d day off??
u are soo mean....
recently
did lots of soul searchin
sth i nva realli did b4
and guess wat
i benifited frm it
i found wat i wan in lyf
b happy 4 mi ppl!!!
i did it!!
haha
but d greatest challenge is still ahead of mi
i noe i can do it
i noe i can
;11:16 PM
Thursday, September 16, 2004
im still waiting for my one and only
;11:06 PM
Wednesday, September 15, 2004
im still waiting for my one and only
away frm all of u
but d 5 of u hit d nail
after much soul searing
i noe wat to do now
thanks guys 4 slappin mi awake
OMG
juz found out sth
dunno how 2 tell her*
[ shall nt say who ]
2 tt bastard
next time clean up ur own mess
dun make some1 do it 4 ya
cleared d misunderstnadin between mi & lia
at least i hoped i did
realli nice gurl
hope we can b frens
if it werent 4 sth called guys
argh
guys
hate tt word now-a-days
except 4 my lil' guardin angel
thank kew 4 listenin 2 mi
= )
juz read ur msg
lol
i dunno larz
i realli wan u carry on wif ur lyf
cuz i myself dunno wat i wan
kinda pathetic huh
sutrisno
i dunno if ya readin dis
i guess there is so much between us
tt has nt been resolved
so many misunderstandings
im gettin tired of it
i dunno if now things look betta 4 d both of us
or worst
sometimes i juz hope u disappear frm d face of dis earth
nva gonna hurt mi again
but i noe tt is nt possible
d onli thing is tt after my Os
i dun see u anymore
unless fate decides 2 let us meet again
im guessin u hav a realli bad impression of mi
cuz i dun pay attention in class
picked up smokin/drinkin
comin late 4 skool
i dunno larz
i cannot tell wats on ur mind
but wateva it is
u hav ur own lyf now
a new beginning
2 d 5 ppl
soo mean
go make mi think of stuff i nva wanted 2 think about
wanted 2 cry
but tears juz din wan come out
lol
drea
relax
things will b fine yeah?
charmed ones will re-unite
= )
;5:25 PM
Tuesday, September 14, 2004
im still waiting for my one and only
gt a lift frm jia lin's mummy
yuuppz
was kinda lazy 2 go back on my own
thanks gurl!!!
i guess i should nt type bout eric
b4 ppl strangle mi
lyk 2pid jiraporn today
nearly killed mi
if i died
i tink all my frens will b happy cuz they dun have 2 hear mi
1] talk bout eric
2] john
3] sutrisno & lia
hahahaha
but seriously
eric is a nice person
so is john
sutrisno too
(((((((((((((((((((((((((((((:
i planned out mi time table yest
and i actually followed it
soo happie
i revised first 7 chp of chem last nite
i actually sat down 4 lyk
2 hrs??
plus i din even touch my fone!!!
couldnt believe it
feels so achieved
*beamx*
2day gonna continue wif chp 8 - 14
den mayb ltr gonna help bell wif her home econ
she suppose 2 make a dessert
d last time we did it
it was a disaster
lol
went ta skool late 2day
woke up at lyk 650
den d previous nite eric was juz tellin mi nt 2 wake up late
hahaha
so i ask mummy drop mi at mac
went 7-11
bought my bridal mag
and some sweets
den slowly drag miself 2 skool
went skool
walked past office
met mr sim
he asked if i was late
den i was lyk yeah
den he ask mi betta faster go hide
lol
den mr ho saw mi 2
he was lyk
late!! den i put my finger on my lip
ask him keep quite
hahaha
den walk 1 beeg round 2 mi klass
mr er saw mi
din realli say much
hahaha
was realli tired
was msg-in eric till lyk 1130
i tink after dis im gonna go ZzZ ler
hahaha
pig rite??
its been over a week
i tink
mi & sutrisno have nt realli conversed wif each other
[ nicer word 2 use ]
realli great fren
but lyk wat i always tell myself
its his loss he doensnt want mi
hahaha
oh ya
i tink drea & sam might juz b talkin 2 each other by d end of dis week
soo happie 4 them
frens again
let bygones b bygones
ps:chramed sistas r back
all evil species BEWARE
haha
feelin realli happie 2day
muackz* 2 all my wonderful frens out there
= p
;4:03 PM
Monday, September 13, 2004
im still waiting for my one and only
except mi
still slckin
hahahaha
had bio lesson juz now
din realli pay much attention
was juz copyin notes
misamjiraporn
were juz crapping
lol
as usual
whole day hav been crappin
mostly bout guys
bein such a bastard
or how they dress
blah blah blah
realized mi & honey[ cindy ]
hav almost d same taste 4 guys
wuz juz tellin her tt
even if i could turn back time
i would still go stead wif sutrisno
knowin tt d out come would b lyk tt
= )
call mi stupid
but i will still do it
btw i dun stare at lia or giv her f**k face
i treat her lyk a normal fren
cuz in d past 7 mths
i've learnt tt its betta 2 have 1 more fren den 1 more enemy
tt was juz 2 satisfy some ppl's need
cuz till now some ppl still think im jealous
and i hate lia
ok mayb i do
but i dun realli hate her or wat
i juz dislike her
but 2 mi
shes a normal fren
= )
athiyah
y u today soo sad wan
or y soo quiet
cheer up gurl!!
john
if u r readin dis
wat has happened
alreadi happened
no point dwellin on d past
take it as a lesson
im nt angry
realli
= )
past few days hav been msg-in eric
den last nite i said i givin mummy my fone
den he said he will miss mi
lol
i dun wanna think soo much rite now
its pretty freaky
im mean i juz noe him nt 2 long ago
and ya. . .
hahahahaha
dis mornin
jiraporn came in
straight away started talkin bout eric
lol
2 my angel & emotional aiderr
thanks!
im glad i did both of u proud
and u r rite
i did it wif d help of my frens
and cuz of tt i let go
was juz talkin 2 sam
i dun believe sutrisno has let go
i mean tt is wat i think larz
cuz he hates it wen i mention our past
and hes gt a ger fren so fast
its lyk hes juz running away frm our past
there is no way he can completly forget d past
unless he suffers frm amnesia
plus he still keeps all d stuff i gave him and alot more
he doesn't wan 2 return den 2 mi
so i came 2 a conclusion
running away frm things
and nt facin up 2 it
will onli cause more pain
i faced up 2 it
i knew we could no longer b together
it took mi awhile
shed some tears in d process
but i did it!
and im happy bout it
lyk last nite i was readin tru my diary
sth caught my eye
" nth is impossible
onli 1 things is
tt is stop loving u"
he once said tt 2 mi
surprisingly i din cry
cuz i knew tt its over
he has his own lyf now
and im happy 4 tt
i've realli changed huh?
*thick skin*
sam wrote sth 4 d whole class 2day
on mine she wrote tt she was sorry 4 d last time
seriously
i was about 2 cry
hahaha
~drea~sam~net~
will we b frens 4eva?
onli god noes
~net&tri~
back together?
onli god noes
;4:45 PM
Sunday, September 12, 2004
im still waiting for my one and only
wanna go back and slp summore
lol
went ta church dis mornin
den went 4 lunch at cine
pastamania
borin
den bell went 2 cut hair
while i was lookin at sum clothes
all d clothes were lyk veri ewwwwww
hahaha
den went over 2 funfit bought sportsbra
all bell fault
drag mi there too
den i end up buyin oso
hahahaha
bought a black & orange wan
hahaha
yest. went 4 dinner
went 2 jade palace at forum
usual place
but
last nite soo funny
daddy fren bought a bottle of champagne
den he opened it
somehow d cork hit d roof and champagne was cumin out
hahaha
everi1 was lookin at our table
cuz nice lil' mi is 16
i get a glass of it
= )
den i met michele & cindy
lol
they were havin dinner wif their family too
den dunno y all a sudden talk bout boy fren ger fren
daddy fren ask mi if i still remember dis guy
[ her nephew ]
den i was lyk yes
she ask mi if i was interesred in him
lol
cuz he needed a date 4 sum event larz
i dun get it
first sam intro mi alwyne
den jiraporn into mi eric
now dis
wats next??!!!
i tink i betta list out my criteria 4 a boy fren den
ermz
lets see....
1]muz b older den mi [ at least a yr older ]
2]muz hav spiked hair or juz-wake-up kinda look
3]play sports
4]open-minded-->nt so sensitive
5]humerous-->know how 2 make mi laf
6]LOVE MI 4 WHO I M
7]$$$
hahahaha
last 1 nt so important larz
WANTED LIST
1]JOHN GOH
2]ATHIYAH
3]SAMANTHA
;6:19 PM
Friday, September 10, 2004
im still waiting for my one and only
i did nt ditch you!!!!!
let mi make it clear
sam needed 2 go off
so i went hm too
argh
plus u can't pick on mi more den 24-7
cuz there r onli 24 hrs a day
7 days a week
no more
no less
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had chem prac dis mornin
den had geog mock exam
im gonna fail
full-stop
my answers were lyk all 1 line
my 10 mark quest answer was juz 4 lines
and they all pure crap
u heard mi
PURE CRAP
hanged ard mac wif samathiyahjia lin
talkin all kinds of lame stuff
den sutrisno was in mac wif lia too
din realli bother much wif them
except my occassional crappin bout them
haha
was juz talkin 2 sam bout it
i dun believe he & lia r together
cuz of d way he carries himself in front of her
its so diff frm d way he treated mi
sam says hes juz usin lia as a replacement
but i dun think hes tt evil
anyway
it doesnt realli concern mi now
= )
he lives his lyf
i live mine
WANTED LIST
1]JOHN GOH
2]ATHIYAH
3]SAMANTHA
all 3 of u should noe veri well y u r on my list
= )
bein mean 2 mi does nt pay
hahahaha
evil mi!!!!!!!!!!!
MUAHAHAHAHAHAHA
2nite gt campfire
dun think i will b goin larz
see some ppl face onli
ruin my mood
lol
so fast go back skool ler
still gt loads of hm wk
sad life we singaporeans live
rite josh??
haha
;4:04 PM
Thursday, September 09, 2004
im still waiting for my one and only
blogger sucks
its officially
argh
my post yest. din appear
went ta skool AGAIN
had a math in d morinin
learing
relative velocity
den had chem prac
after tt daddy picked mi up
went 4 lunch at d cafe again
had italian soda
lurve it!!!
msg-ing eric now
haha
he suddenly msg mi
den i ask y
he said i crossed his mind
OoOoOoOo
hahaha
den he ask mi 4 my e-mail add
okok
im thinkin too much
IF...IF
mi and eric get 2gether
den i would hav 2 thank jiraporn
*freaky thought*
hahaha
ltr gt tution
borin
still hav nt found my motivation
time is clickin
im DEAD
so so so
DEAD
;5:13 PM
Wednesday, September 08, 2004
im still waiting for my one and only
but went ta skool 4 extra geog lesson
mi soo hardworkin!!!
ATHIYAH
leave me
bluff me
say u cumin den nva come
*hemphx*
u owe me an explaination
soo funni 2day
i invented kenny & kenneth 2 join mi grp
den today both turned up
hahaha
they were actually fine
= )
yuuppz
den they mayb ltr goin out wif mr chua too
mr chua i noe u read my bloggie
y nva ask mi oso??
*sobz*
looks lyk every1 is ok now
mayb except 4 sam & drea
i realli dunno wat ta say 2 both of them
realli miss d times we hang out 2gether
we were suppose 2 take class photos
i wan take wif both of them!!!
*wishful thinking*
cried last night
mummy wacked mi
nth 2 b proud of
she pissed mi off
all i did was watch tv
= (
i dun understand wassup wif my parents
they juz dun understand mi
or i juz dun understand them
6pts 4 o level is all they care
nva did they ask mi wat i realli wanted
whether i was happy or not
whether i was copin fine in skool
i hate my life at hm
it sucks
everyday im forced 2 do TYS
i mean its my lyf
i noe wat i wan
u dun hav 2 treat me as if im some kind of animal
u dun hav 2 watch mi 24-7
i hate it
i pray 2 god everynite hoping i can understand my parents betta
and my parents understand mi betta too
anyway good job john!!
u won yesterday!!
= )
every1 has been teasin mi bout alwyne
hahaha
den sam asked if i wan his no. summore
lame
hahaha
tml goin skool again
at 8 4 a math den at 10 gt chem prac
holiday but nt holiday
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
;2:15 PM
Tuesday, September 07, 2004
im still waiting for my one and only
had geog
sat behind
it was juz mi & athiyah
= )
its so good 2 sit behind and do wateva i wan again
hahahaha
met alwyne today
haha
pretty shy guy
nt ur typical ACS guy
but ok larz
6/10??
haha
he msg sam sayin he recongnised mi frm d funfair
tt was ages ago
how cum i dun recognise him?!
came hm
did a mth paper
CHIJ paper
was nt so bad larz
brain juices hav been exhausted
den watch freaky friday DVD
tml gt skool again
8 o'clock!!!
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
tml is map-readin
asked miss chin 4 sum help
called other ppl along too
athiyahsamluigikennykenneth
tt reminds me
hahaha
soo funni
kenny & kenneth havin cold war
over lame stuff
shall nt go into detail
i tink mi class is falling apart
= (
everyone juz dun seem 2 get along wif one another
bloody bastard
i msg him asked if he wan join mi tml 4 d map readin thingy
din even reply mi
i mean
"HELLO!!!IF SOME1 MSG YOO
ITS BASIC COURTESY 2 REPLY
REGARDLESS OF WAT-SO-EVA"
i dun believe dis
forgeddit
wat angel say is right
mayb cuz we noe too much bout each other
so its difficult 2 b frens again
anyway sam says
juz sit back & watch
see how long they last
haha
shall nt be mean!!
((((((((((((((((((((((:
was msg-ing john last nite
till my eyes closed
realli appreciated wateva u r doin 4 mi now
i tink i found a new name 4 john
///guardian angel\\my nice lil' guardian angel
juz lyk my lil' angel [ yourangel]
who always noes wen 2 appear
thanks angel
everitime wen im feelin down u always write sth in my tag borad
= )
muackz!
john..
we all hav 2 move on in lyf
its time u move on too
okiez?
tinggggg
u r realli strong
i tink tt u finally did sth 4 urself
stay strong my lil' sis
jie will always b here 4 ya
;6:07 PM
Monday, September 06, 2004
im still waiting for my one and only
3 freakin hours!!!
den ltr went hm
cuz gt tution
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
i hate miss chin!!!
scold mi as if everythin my fault lyk tt
as if she noe everythin
argh
can't believe i even gave her teachers day prezzie
f**k her larz
forggdit
tml gt skool again
bitch lesson tml
8am summore
so bloody early
anyway had ROD last nite
went there
had BBQ
den drank alcohol
actually nt realli larz
it was lyk onli 6% voldka onli lorz
sianz
den went hm
shower den go slp
last nite sutrisno oso drink
haha
we both nva say anythin bout each other
haha
den last nite mr chan oso talk 2 mi bout john & him
din realli bother mi tt much
anyway i still hav nt cried
feel so achieved
*beamsx*
bella out 2day
watchin 13 goin on 30
hate u!!
mi wanna go out tooo
hahaha
feelin tired
wanna go ZzZ ler
fianally finish CME project
= )
;5:58 PM
Saturday, September 04, 2004
im still waiting for my one and only
how could u!!!!
set such a difficult paper
OMG
i was lyk starin at d first quest 4 bout 10 min
i counted d marks
9 marks!!
wat d hell
i could nt leave it blank
so i skipped it
den went back 2 it ltr
d whole paper was damn freakin hard
had geog dis mornin
could nt wake up
so din bother goin
hahaha
tml goin 4 ROD
so fast
4 yrs in GMSS
suppose 2 meet at 0430 at pasir ris mrt
i tink mayb i wanna go earlier
wanna go catch a movie first
MAYB onli
sam says lia is nt worth bein my fren
cuz she is stilled pissed wif mi
i tink
dunno them larz
i tink tt's wat happen wen u put 2 ppl wif f**kin attitude 2gether
hahaha
perfect match
= )
anyway we will juz see how long they last
*meanie me*
hahahahahahahaha
gettin realli evil now-a-days
haha
i guess tts
ME
athiyah
mi hav nt forgotten u
im serious!!
dun b so sad
cheer up gurl!!
see ya tml at d ROD
will b seein sutrisno there too
hack man
it doesnt realli concern mi anymore
i hav 2 pull myself 2gether
= )
so many ppl out there expect alot frm mi
i cannot disappoint them
and i will not!
was juz talkin 2 dan
we both juz said hi and bye
cuz he has 2 go study
so hardworkin!!
i feel ashamed of mi self
haha
so i betta start crackin too
drea if ya readin dis
go pursue ur dreams
dun juz giv up lyk tt
be it La-selle or poly or jc
live ur dream
ok gurl??
;1:51 PM
Friday, September 03, 2004
im still waiting for my one and only
i still have nt cried
((((((((((((((((((((((((:
was talkin 2 zhang qia
he said
愛一個人就要放他走
i sooooooooo agree
although it will take sum time
but i believe i can do it
i dunno
im nt jealous or wat
i juz feel a little un easy seeing them together
yeah
he treats mi so coldly
as if we were nva frens
sum say its nt worth it
hes nt even worth bein ur fren
mayb they r rite
mr chua says 2 yrs down d road i will b lafin at how foolish i m
mayb
hahaha
everithin happens 4 a reason
we juz need sum time 2 figure out d reason
all i noe now is a hav 2 work my butt off d next mth
actually im doin sum improvement
i found my study grp!!!
haha
dunno larz
was talkin 2 mel yest
den was askin her bout study grp
she said she study bwif rella sumtimes
so i asked her 2 call mi den
yuuppz
i need sum motivation 2 study
i lack tt
can sum1 tell mi where can i find it??
M
O
T
I
V
A
T
I
O
N
im lost
lost in dis world
actually mayb nt
i realized tt there r so many ppl out there who care 4 mi
*thick skin*
haha
dunno larz
but its lyk i nva knew these ppl even existed
haha
but now i know!!!
thanks peeps
gt progress card 2day
mi no.13 in class!!!
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
*pissified*
i knew i could hav done betta
if i left my butt out a whole lot of shit
i heard shes goin US 2
mayb tt y he wans 2 b wif her
okok
here i go again
ENUFF
i have 2 stop dis
yeah
life has and will go on
wifout him
= )
dan was sayin i've lightened up alot dis yr
haha
ppl hav said mi attitude has changed
so mayb...
MAYB
d breakup was a good thing
i guess it gave us sum time apart
2 sort our own lives out
opps
startin again
hahaha
i guess bein first love
he will always b there
= )
tml gt geog lesson at 0730
sianz larz
dun wanna go
den still gt e math mock
hiazzz
sec 4
d "punishment" we get
hahahaha
;8:44 PM
Thursday, September 02, 2004
im still waiting for my one and only
feel so much better
thanks
i din cry
i din hate
i din get angry
all i did was noe tt both he & i were happy
happy
wat is happiness??
does happiness hav 2 cum frm a gurl fren or boy fren?
nah
dun think so
im single
yet im happy
im nt true if d happiness will last
but who cares??
im happy now
i realli am
talked 2 mr chua 2day
im nt mad!!
haha
thanks
4 always hearin mi talk crap
haha
mayb u r rite
2 yrs ltr i will b lafin at myself
hahaha
thank 2 all my frens who hav been here 4 mi
thanks guys
wifout u all
i would nt b d happie gurl i m today
= )
lurve u all
muackzz!!
hahaha
takin bout kissin
mi & cons kissed each other today
EWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW
hahaha
hack man
we r les
haha
yeah rite
cons wanted kiss sam but sam was 2 freaked out
she went wif jia lin
den left mi & cons
walked out of skool holdin hands
haha
darlingggggggggggg
muackz!*
lame shit
anyway
hav been dreamin bout prince charming
okokokok
dun wanna sound so despo
i wish him all d best
hope he wishes mi too
((((((((((((((((((((((((:
;6:36 PM
Wednesday, September 01, 2004
im still waiting for my one and only
saw lia & HIM outside heeran
stupid pillar was blockin mi
but if i see rite they were holidin hands larz
damn d pillar
den they saw mi too
haha
i still can recall d shock on his face
soo funni
haha
anyway was wif daddy
so i called him
he still insists they nt 2gether
we msg each other a while
he say lia is his sis onli
dunno them larz
we both should move on in life
so long as he is truly happy
i guess i will b fine
(((((((((((((((((((((((:
went out wif nickandrew 4 lunch
ate at d cafe
den i helped serve food cuz they were short-handed
had first hand experience on bein a waitress
no way will i b one again
haha
actually nickandrew help serve as well
onli toopit bella
so lazy
juz sit down wait 2 b served
d 3 of us had 2 earn our lunch
hahaha
tml goin back skool
wonder wat it will b lyk
see HIM
hahahaha
see LIA
haha
actually dun realli lyk lia
dunno y
she lyk everitime gimme tt F face
argh
haha
i soo nice
smile at her
she lyk tt
hiazzz
no manners ar
lolz
forgddit
tt is other ppl
i dun realli care much
yoo noe
i hav a feelin
prince charming is appearin soon
. . .
= )
;7:16 PM