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*linette
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madded*
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Saturday, October 30, 2004

went down ta meet zhihao todae
was thinkin tt he will b late again so i left hm late too
lol
but guess wat
he was still ltr den mi
pffffffffffffffffffffffft
i dun understand him
how can he b soo late all d time
i pity his future gurl fren man
muz always wait 4 him nt he wait 4 her
lol
soo finally gt my ss notes
waited 4 mummy 2 pick mi
so had chicken rice
hav nt had tt in ages
OoOoOoOo
was pretty ok

gt hm
mummy forced mi 2 staride cheena
soo borin
gt tired of it
den went ta slp
hm was soo noisy so i could nt slp
den went out 2 meet grace 2 pass her d notes & cd

came back
watch sum tv
b4 goin back 2 slp
but i slpt onli half an hr!!!
argh

daddy gonna b back 2nite
den he & mummy rushin off 4 weddin dinner
cuz elaine's bro is gettin married
[ kinda forgot his name ]
lol
slaps myself*

2 more days 2 O levels
i dun seem 2 b freaked out lyk others
ish there sth wrong wif meeeee??

im still waiting for my one and only
;6:47 PM


Friday, October 29, 2004

im pissed
whole singapore's photocopyin machine seems to b spoilt
now i hav 2 meet zhi hao tml
2 get d ss notes photocopied
wtf

din go skool 2day
cuz had 2 meet zhi hao
he was teachin mi ss
wow
i actually learnt stuff 2dae
thanks bro!
lol
although ur "lesson" is pretty lifeless
hahaha
but i did learn
den after tt grace came
den clera
actually din study much 2dae
was mostly crappin
now i feel guilty
urpx*
so i goin stardie tru d nite

zhihao was meetin his fren 2 watch a movie
he ask grace 2 go
grace wanted 2 go
leavin wif mi no choice
so i tagged along too
din realli wan to
but 4 d sake of gurlfren
i had to

it was rainin wen we left holland v
so we were drenched by d time we gt onto d cab
lol
reached there
met his fren
i tink his fren paid 4 my ticket
grace said dun bother payin back
hahaha
we watched before sunset
EWWWWWWWWWWWWW
crpppy movie
all bout sex and fantasizing
argh

den ltr went 2 shop abit
brought gracezhihao into LV in taka
there was dis guy
he was bein soo sacarsitic
he was lyk
yoo all ahould nt b here
if u cant afford it
get out!
argh
wat kind of serivice is dis!!
saw d charm-braclet i always wanted
it cost 5k
dimond wan cost 50k
lol

den after tt went hm
zhihao followed us
cuz we were thinkin of photocopyin at farrer market
d damn machine was spoilt
argh
den he walked grace hm
OoOoOo

super shy guy
but realli nyce heart
now i noe y soo many gurls r at his feet
hahaha

its late
i betta shower

OMG
juz remembered 2nite gt SI
hav a strange feelin tt sly is gonna get kicked out
sobx*
dunno lar
see if my intuition is rite in lyk
2 hrs more
???????????????????????????

im still waiting for my one and only
;6:34 PM


Thursday, October 28, 2004

had bio prac todae
i had to draw a prawn
omg
i had 2 draw a prawn
can u believe it
mummy was lyk lafin at meee
wen i told her tt

next monday main paper starts ler
so fast...

was thinkin of sum1 d whole nite
din noe y
he was juz in my head
nt tt him larz
i tink tt wan i can giv up ler
i guess he juz treats mi as a sis
but i din understand y i kept thinkin of tt sum1
even dis mornin durin bio prac i was thinkin of him
i guess it was cuz we were studyin bio together yest

but my gurl fren lyks him
i dun wanna b d 3rd party or wateva u call it

confused*

juz talk 2 kor kor
he said he saw sutrisno 2day wif lia at holland
i was at holland too
haha
lucky din nt see them

tml wun b goin skool
cuz zhihao gonna teach mi ss
realli need help on ss man
i dun wanna fail
at least get a b4
= )

lyf is juz full of surprises
soo unpredictable

im still waiting for my one and only
;3:32 PM


Wednesday, October 27, 2004

went ta skool early
cuz first period was bio
den stayed 4 add math
left durin recess
was contemplatin 2 leave
cuz after recess had ss
but i was thinkin
i would slp in ss so might as well leave skool

i took a bus down 2 sixth ave 2 meet
gracezhi haoclera
hahaha
grace was damn shocked 2 see meeee
cuz last nite they ask mi if wanna go stardie together
i was lyk i need go ta skool
so we moved over 2 venezia cuz d tables there were bigger
lol
i actually stardied
mizhihao was studyin bio
cleragrace did add math
if i stayed in skool
i would nt hav done so much
hahahaha

zhihao
i dunno if ya readin dis
sorry bout 2day ya...
took ur fone
and asked u all sorts of embrassing quest
hahahaha
i dunno y
but u seem lyk i veri challengin guy 2 mi
sum1 veri hard 2 figure out
so i guess u interest mi alot
hahaha

grace darling
anythin and everythin is possible
= )
dun forget d pics of jem!!!
hahaha

tml ish bio prac
realli scared bout d drawin part
even zhihao can draw better den mi
sobx*

2 all those takin Os
its d last league of d race
giv it all you've got
((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((:

im still waiting for my one and only
;4:57 PM


Tuesday, October 26, 2004

happie burfday alvin!!
18 ler!!!
sho fast!!

din hav time 2 update yest.
went 4 phy prac at bishan
meet kennyluigi there
b4 tt met bell at orchard
cuz she had jap klass
so we went bishan together

went junction 8
wanted get sth 4 alvin
saw dis realli kewl swiss knife
too bad need 3 days 2 get it done
so juz gt him a card lar

tution was ok larz

den todae had phy prac
will nt say its too diff or easy
bleaghx*
but 1 thing i noe is i hav 2 work damn hard 4 main paper
yuuppz
soo meet alvin after skool
was wif ying chengjohnzhang qiatingg
kinda dragged her wif mi
sorry dar~
pai sei
alvin look damn funni man
wear soo formal
lol
sorry bro but it realli look damn wierd on yoo
den every1 was sayin i under stress
stupid ying cheng ask mi go see physiatrist summore
argh
left wif tingg
den met patrick
short intro on him-->
he's abit confused bout his sexuality
abit gay
abit girly
wateva
so he was juz terrorisin mi & tingg
was freakin out

yesterday gt d " one good thing " frm mr er
i wrote 4 all my klassmates
but onli 22 wrote back 4 mi
hahaha

short but with a big heart!thanks for always believin in me/bein there for me/looking out for me/being the bestest friend for 4 year! ((:-->samantha

a straightforward and caring person-->jennifer

linette um..dont know what should i say about u but i cant find much things to blame u as well (is this positive or negative?) dis is d wierd 1...still dunno who dis is haha

linette is nice, and emotional at times-->athiyah

hardworking i shall say. it is sometimes good to slack. it helps alot -takecare-

she's sweet and fun to talk to.good luck in everything you do ^^

adorable girl

linette short-->yuan ting wanna kill him 4 tt hahaha

great fan of 5566--> sam

funky girl. someone fun to blabber on and on with. she's one intelligent gal-->cindy

a smart and confident person-->florence

independent woman! = p quite a nice person! smile more gurl!-->jialin

happy to be friend with you

future debator,out-spoken

linette, she's small sized, but her debating skills are super sized

she teaches me english

hyperactive and likes to talk alot and she is a kind girl

linette is a 5566 crazy girl and of course other guys as well like Toro, yan xing shu and... good luck for everything that you do in future-->jiraporn

a talkative gal, but is nice to talk to her

nice and funky girl! she is a friend maker girl! alright friend, all the best for life! hope to see ya soon! god bless you! *peace*every1 thinks its sutrisno..if it is realli him..mi sociable?? izzit good or bad?? lol

great buddy for 4 years with a slight breakdown, but we finally picked up frm where we left off and chill on. you'll find him soon enuff!!-->drea

friends forever

lastly
mr er learnt sprititedness
nothing gets you down for long
you've got the strength to make it in life
and the spunkiness to live life well

thanks guys for all ya stuff
lurve u all to bits!


im still waiting for my one and only
;4:33 PM


Sunday, October 24, 2004

went ta church todae
dunno y but was damn high in church
lol

den after curch bell went ta wheelock 2 meet sarah
so mummy said go hm
but she changed her mind cuz she wanna go taka
so went ta wheelock
den saw every1 queing up 4 autograph session 4 sg. idols
so i ask mummy if i could stay den meet her ltr
she say ok
so went ta find bell
den went inside borders there
where all d idols was
OMG
oli looks so cute in person
den asked sly if i could take pic wif him
he said ok
so i ask sarah ta use my fone
den i took a pic wif sarah
den went outside
talked 2 chris daddy
den cuz rain
the idols left early
den went hm ler

go hm so sianzz
mug mug mug
did geog 2dae
so borin
now gt headache
muz b stupid geog fault
lol

i now on stardie leave
so can go skool anytime i lyk
so tml i onli goin 4 first half of d day

weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

was talkin 2 graceclerazhihao last nite
added zhihao's gay fren [ jeremy] on friendster
den every1 was teasing mi
pffffffffffffffffffft

hahahaha

tml gt phy prac all d way at bishan

damn fast man
d week after is ma O level ler

den off ta play skool
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

im still waiting for my one and only
;6:44 PM


Saturday, October 23, 2004

juz woke up
cant slp anymore
wanted 2 go 4 a swim
stupid bell dun wan
wan continue slp
PEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEG!!!!!!!!!!

ok

now i realize y my previous post hav been so short
cuz i din write bout SI!!!
din watch on thur cuz had tution as usual
but asked mummy 2 record it 4 mi
so i watched it on fri mornin
OMG
oli was damn hot
kekekekekeke
all did great!
den on last nite
sly & maia were bottom 2
i was lyk
wat d hell!
anyway all were good
its a though fight
no matter whos there
i would feel kinda sad
yeah
so den maia was eliminated

clueless*

happy tt sly still in
sad tt maia was eliminated

sly has benn botttom 2 4 2 weeks
dunch noe if he will get eliminated 2 next round

asked sarah 2 get auto frm sly wif mi name
thanks sarah!
cuz bell keep forgettin 2 geddit fer mi

saw wat sutrisno wrote 4 lia's testimonial
he said in sec 2 he already knew she was a veri nice gurl
den y did he still pick mi?!
den he said now they are together it lyk their hearts matched each other

i feel lyk F**k
cuz it seems lyk hes repeatin wateva he said 2 mi 2 another gurl
wadever
lyf still muz go on
i cant let dis small insignificant things brin mi down
everythin happens 4 a reason
mayb god wans mi 2 meet sum1 betta?
hahaha

dreamx~

but wateva it is
i noe i still hav frens i can count on
family who still lurve mi
[ although they piss mi off too ]
= p

mayb wen i find tt rite guy
i would understand all

f i n a l l y

im still waiting for my one and only
;5:33 PM



its 12 and im still nt asleep

chem prac was a disaster
argh
f.y.i tiratrion results should b 25.3

forgeddit

its over

im juz pissed i went ta modify my titration values
argh

went fer tution 2dae
apologised 2 zhi hao
lol
sorry man
every1 has their own private lyf
i should nt hav butt in

tml stayin at hm whole day again
sianzz

update tml
brain dided*

im still waiting for my one and only
;1:02 AM


Wednesday, October 20, 2004

HAPPY GRADUATION DAY PEEPS!
HAD A WONDERFUL 4 YEARS
HOPE U DID TOO....

sobx*
i cried
i was d onli idiot in my klass who cried
lol

4 years
WOW
i can still remember d times wen i was in sec 1
now im sec 4
and tml is my O level!!
[ chem prac ]
i dunch believe it man
4 damn years
and it juz pass lyk tt

feelin pretty happy 2dae
maine*
thank kew
= )
hugx*
with a fren lyk u ard
there wun b any chance of mi bein lonely or dejected

elaine*
y werent we on good terms before?
hahaha
god has a unique plane 4 each of us
so mayb tt's y we r frens now
wateva it is
i hope its stays dis way
frens ya?

john*
i dunno y
i juz wished u were here 4 my graduation
lol
2 bad u din make it
2gether wif my other da ge[s]
evil ppl
dun wanna attend my graduation cermony
hempghx*

sam & drea*
thanks 4 bein there 4 mi
sumtimes u guys do piss mi off
but hey
i pissed u off too
= p
charmed ones always

athiyah*
lil' fren
wasssup wif ya
i miss d times we crao together
go hm together
go holland v together
juz miss d old athiyah

sutrisno*
4 years in dis skool
2 yrs spent wif yoo
wat more can i say
wonderful memories
wateva happens
i juz wan yoo 2 noe
no matter how far yoo are
i'll b prayin 4 yoo
lyk i always do

all d other ppl who helped made my 4 years in GMSS memorable

~lurfe yoo all to bits!~

[ if u name is nt mentioned here dun kill mi alright = ) ]

tml chem prac
next week phy & bio prac
and then im in
into full swing

evil mi is slowly countin down 2 d no. of days before i break out of hell

30 days

suffer 4 another 30 days
and i'll b free
WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

(((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((:

im still waiting for my one and only
;7:11 PM


Tuesday, October 19, 2004

damn tired
had mosquitos wizzing ard mi last nite
so din get a good slp
sobx*

i was juz tellin myself its been ages since i last shed a tear
well
i broke tt record 2day

stupid daddy pissed mi off

i dun realli remember wat he said
but it was those normal naggin
if it was sum1 else i guess i wouldnt even b bothered
i oso dunno y
it juz hit mi tt hard
tears juz started flowin
hahaha
call mi x-tra sensitive
mayb i m

tml ish mi beeg day
graduation day!!
4 yrs in ghim moh
too many memories
but i thing i noe i will b leavin wif wonderful memories

him....
should juz forgeddit
no point
i should juz do my own thing
and wait 4 love to find mi
lyk tt
tt kind of love will feel different
sth more special
hahaha
= )

im still waiting for my one and only
;7:25 PM


Monday, October 18, 2004

din go skool today
cuz its markin day

HAPPY BURFDAY DREA
MUACKX
MAY ALL UR WISHES AND DREAMS CUM TRU
HAPPY SWEET SIXTEEN

sorry couldnt cum hav lunch wif ya

went 4 tution 2day
but before tt went venezia wif cleragrace
den walk 2 class
we tot we were late
but wen we went in we were lyk d onli peeps there
so we left klass
went 7-11
hahaha
den saw zhi hao
dragged him 2 7-11 wif us
den went klass 15 min later
in klass keep crappin
hahaha
soo funny
i tink d teacher gt kinda pissed/irritated wif us

dis fri gt lesson again

tml no skool again!!
but gt stay at hm stardie
Os r lyk in 2 weeks
oh my gawd
dun believe dis

was lookin at seventeen mag today
all d prom dresses sooooo nyce
sooooo sad i gt no prom
thinkin of highlightin mi hair after Os
wat u think lehz?
or mayb b lyk sarah put coloured hair extensions
??????

after Os den we shall see
but mi definately nt gonna b lyk phyllis who pierced her navel
OUCH*
lol


im still waiting for my one and only
;10:16 PM


Sunday, October 17, 2004

din go chruch todae
cuz last nite came back at lyk 1
so mummy pretty pissed
keepin mi hm d whole day

tml ish holiday!!
WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

actually nt realli
gt stay at hm and mug
im a mugger!!!
save miiiiiiiiiiiiiii

tml drea burfday too
dunno if can go
i realli wanna gooooo
see how larz

sam's rite
sum ppl hav changed

athiyah
i dunno y
but it seems lyk u're realli cold to mi now
i hate tt kind of feelin
dilemma*

how i wish i was d lonely freak
every1 hated
lyk tt i would nt hav hurt ppl ard mi
i feel lyk f**k

im evil

thy shall hate me
for thy is evil

forgeddit

dunno y
was thinkin of sutrisno dis mornin
lol
i guess its normal
but im happy tt he has moved on

was thinkin of john too
hahaha
tt's a surprise

but he still no.1 in my brain at d moment

wed is mi graduation ler
4 yrs in ghim moh
it brings back loads of memories
good and bad
im sure tears would b shed on wed
lol
ok
its nt funny
cuz im sure i will b 1 of those cryin too

there is a quest lingerin at d back of mi head
wat does it take to b a happy person
wat do we hav to do to hav a happy lyf
is it education?
money?
fame?
i see ppl who do nt hav much education
but still live a very happy lyf
y daddy mummy keep tellin mi education is essential in lyf?
isnt happiness d most important?

can sum1 answer mi

i guess im juz bein veri naive
wifout education
where do we get money
no money how do we hav happiness
but can happiness b bought wif money?

lyf is juz too unpridictable

lyf is too deep for many to comprehend

im still waiting for my one and only
;1:04 PM


Saturday, October 16, 2004

went ta orchard todae
went 2 orchard hotel 4 d fair first
den walked down 2 heeran & cine

d fair was filled wif loads of peeps
i tink either i will go taylor college [ perth ] or
university of queensland foundation

went down ta heeran & cine
wanted buy sth 4 drea burfday
but couldnt find any
den saw dis cute guy
= )
he's name is sky
OoOoOo
hes yuan ting's fren
haha
saw his pic frm yuan ting so i recognise him

hes damn cute
betta den d pic
hahaha

ltr goin out 4 dinner
regent hotel
i dun exactly fancy regent hotel anymore
used 2 go 2 d bar there veri often

most of mi frens goin poly
all my 856 dearies r goin poly too
bell says sarah wanna go NP study sum childhood development course
sam wanna do tt too

bought myself a pair of earings frm bits & pieces

den saw dis hot tude dress

wanted 2 buy

but was thinkin
forgeddit

met chin wengwillysilviafebe wen walkin out of orchard hotel
chin weng says he gt accepted 2 trinity college ler
den willy gt accepted 2 taylor college [ melbourn ]

mummy says if can get into JC
den no point goin

quite tru*

we shall see how
will talk ta daddy tonight

im still waiting for my one and only
;4:48 PM


Friday, October 15, 2004

went 4 tution todae
was crappin wif graceclera
mi & grace kept disturbin clera bout guys
hahaha

tml will b goin 4 d study in aust fair tml wif clera
mayb goin wif chin weng & willy

todae had lunch wif samdreajirapornjia lin
den mr chua & mr chew came
OMG
lol

havin a terrible headache now

i seriously thinks athiyah hates mi

but wat did i do????
blur*

took class photos today

will try 2 upload it here ltr

jerry is out of SI
realli nyce guy
he juz happens to b at d wrong place at d wrong time
he cant sing
agreeable*
but u ppl dun hav 2 hate him 2 d core

nette misses jerry

but

nette still loves sly

beamx*
= D

im still waiting for my one and only
;10:44 PM


Thursday, October 14, 2004

WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
L1R5-20
hahaha
thanks mr tay
moderate A & E math
haha
my L1R4-9
OMG

lol

i tink now can go CJC ler
we shall see how
but ultimately actual O level counts
= )

i dunno y
but every1 seems 2 b givin mi attitude
argh
esp drea
i went over 2 her
den she was lyk
damn pissed larz
den say said sth bout mi gettin single digit 4 L1R4

HELLO!!
i worked my butt of 4 prelims
dun giv mi tt kind of attitude

forgeddit

drea's juz veri
dotz*

hav been talkin 2 maine alot recently
lol
amazing huh
but i sum how feel lyk we've been great frens all along
y did we even dislike each other before??!!
haha
talkin 2 maine
is soo much different frm talkin wif samdrea
i dunno how 2 explain
hahaha
lurve u maine*
muackx!

havin been talkin 2 elaine too
we actually get along well
= )
OoOoOoOo
i seem to bee talkin 2 loads of ppl i din lyk before
hahaha
talkin 2 elaine is sth lyk
talkin 2 d wall
she listens
and gives comments after tt
its lyk anythin on my mind i can tell her
she will juz listen
thanks elaine!

now i kinda look forward to cheena lessons and recess
away frm my klass

4/1 2004
i juz feel i dun belong there anymore

sounding so emotional todae
haha

nvm

im a happie lil' gurl
((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((:

im still waiting for my one and only
;11:17 PM


Wednesday, October 13, 2004

had bio test after skool
was nt THAT bad
den went hm straight
samdreajia lin went henry park apartments 2 stardie
mr chua was goin wif them

recently
athiyah has been lyk realli quite
i hav a feelin its cuz of mi
i tink she tinks tt i dun care bout her anymore
cuz now sam & drea r my frens again
its nt true larz

wen sam & drea were quarrellin i had both of them to talk to
now they ok
they seem 2 have lyk forogtten mi
dunno y
i miss d days i was alone
although i din hav any1 2 share things wif
now i hav frens
but i feel lyk sth is missin
sth beeeg is missin frm my lyf
but i juz dunno wat

emailed sutrisno last nite
i told him tt breakin up was a right decision
now i noe y
its betta 4 d both of us

no point dwellin on d past
i still hav a long road ahead of mi

next week is my sci prac
soo fast
bout 2 weeks more 2 Os

i should juz hack everythin rite now
juz concentrate on mi stardies
yuuppz

= )

im still waiting for my one and only
;3:57 PM



had bio test after skool
was nt THAT bad
den went hm straight
samdreajia lin went henry park apartments 2 stardie
mr chua was goin wif them

recently
athiyah has been lyk realli quite
i hav a feelin its cuz of mi
i tink she tinks tt i dun care bout her anymore
cuz now sam & drea r my frens again
its nt true larz

wen sam & drea were quarrellin i had both of them to talk to
now they ok
they seem 2 have lyk forogtten mi
dunno y
i miss d days i was alone
although i din hav any1 2 share things wif
now i hav frens
but i feel lyk sth is missin
sth beeeg is missin frm my lyf
but i juz dunno wat

emailed sutrisno last nite
i told him tt breakin up was a right decision
now i noe y
its betta 4 d both of us

no point dwellin on d past
i still hav a long road ahead of mi

next week is my sci prac
soo fast
bout 2 weeks more 2 Os

i should juz hack everythin rite now
juz concentrate on mi stardies
yuuppz

= )

im still waiting for my one and only
;3:57 PM



had bio test after skool
was nt THAT bad
den went hm straight
samdreajia lin went henry park apartments 2 stardie
mr chua was goin wif them

recently
athiyah has been lyk realli quite
i hav a feelin its cuz of mi
i tink she tinks tt i dun care bout her anymore
cuz now sam & drea r my frens again
its nt true larz

wen sam & drea were quarrellin i had both of them to talk to
now they ok
they seem 2 have lyk forogtten mi
dunno y
i miss d days i was alone
although i din hav any1 2 share things wif
now i hav frens
but i feel lyk sth is missin
sth beeeg is missin frm my lyf
but i juz dunno wat

emailed sutrisno last nite
i told him tt breakin up was a right decision
now i noe y
its betta 4 d both of us

no point dwellin on d past
i still hav a long road ahead of mi

next week is my sci prac
soo fast
bout 2 weeks more 2 Os

i should juz hack everythin rite now
juz concentrate on mi stardies
yuuppz

= )

im still waiting for my one and only
;3:57 PM


Tuesday, October 12, 2004

damn borin in skool 2dae
sam din cum skool
evil woman!!!
had all d borin lessons
math
geog
bio

dunno y athiyah soo sad 2dae
i hav a feelin its lyk mi fault
dunno lehz

went holland v 4 lunch
den bought a pair of peenk sun glasses!!
hav been havin d hots 4 tinted glasses recently
haha

yesterday went tution
left mi fone on class
was totally freakin out wen i gt hm
lucky grace was still there havin lesson
so she brought my fone and pass it 2 mi
thanks grace!
owe u one!!
den mummy found out i took mi fone
so now no more fone

dun think i goin trinity stardie ler
daddy larz
say wat no $$
so im keepin my options now
mayb go CJC?
np do mass com?
do bankin & finance?
bio-medical?
law?

dunno larz
lyf's pretty screwed
but im nt gonna giv up so easily

overhead a conversation todae
heard tt sutrisno nt goin US stardie anymore
AHHHHHHHHHHHH
heard he wanna go np too
i was thinkin after i graduate i no need see him
den now we both wanna go np
i dun believe dis
crappified

tml gt bio test after skool
betta go do TYS ltr

i now no fone
cannot msg him
plus now n level is over
i wun see him anymore
i guess its called fate
we juz dun fit 2gether

accept my fate*

im still waiting for my one and only
;3:46 PM


Monday, October 11, 2004

came hm early todae
nth 2 do in skool
he onli finishes at 4
gt tution
so dun wanna wait

my results r confirmed
failed combine humanities
dunno if can go JC

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

todae dunno y
was in a veri pms-tic mood
lol
sorri if i offended any 1 of u guys

OMG
todae durin chem
i had paper 1 of d worksheet
den i ask mr chua 4 paper 2
den he was lyk den sum1 should hav paper 2
but no1 had it
until sutrisno was lyk
i onli hav paper 2
d whole class
went
OoOoOoOo
can't believe it!!!
was it conincidence or did sum1 do tt on purpose
????????????????

woke up late todae
cuz bell no need go skool
i betta nt b late anymore
cuz its gonna affect mi conduct

ltr gt tution
gonna see d 6-pointer guy
argh
he goin RJC 4 next 3 mth next yr
wah
den mi lehz
strugglin 2 even get into JC
hiazz

todae his last paper
so after tt no need cum skool ler
den i would see less and less of him

sobx*

lyf is full of surprises
un predictable
ups and downs

im still waiting for my one and only
;3:36 PM


Sunday, October 10, 2004

weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
feel so awake
slp 4 lyk 1 1/2 hr

2nite my fav show last episode
wat m i still doin here?
i can't watch duh!!!
argh

went church 2dae
den after tt went paragon 4 lunch
lurfe my sushi
den went 2 do abit of shopping

den go hm

study

sianzz

tml back 2 skool
bell no skool
= (
unfair!!

i forgot sutrisno no. tt day
haha
dunno y
but i was tryin 2 recall it
i juz couldnt
lol
sum how i onli remember happy stuff bout our relationship
i dun realli remember any quarrles
hahaha

is tt a good sign??

in church todae
i thanked god 4 alot of things
one was helpin mi cope wif mi lyf
helpin mi wif my exams
most importantly helpin mi understand
wat does lurve thy ememy mean
thank you god
= )


im still waiting for my one and only
;7:12 PM


Saturday, October 09, 2004

im still awake!!!!!!
hahaha
daddy took d com away dis afternoon
so i din get a chance 2 use it
din watch tv too
lyf is borin
.......... .......... .........

bell went fer SI last nite
den 2day went cine again

WAHHHHHHHHHHH

i wanna see SLY
bell gt most of d idols autograph
d best thing is tt
sly's family noes her
AHHHHHHHH
jealous*

i wanna go too
but i gt Os

studis ruin my lyf

but lookin on d bright side
after 1 more mth
im free!!
i can playyyyyyyy

2day stuck at hm whole day
nva go out
stay at hm myself
so sianz

tml goin church
den dunno wat ler
borin day
gets a borin post

im still waiting for my one and only
;11:43 PM


Friday, October 08, 2004

DAVID YEO IS OUT OF
SINGAPORE IDOL

HOW YOU PEOPLE VOTE!

I WAS CRYING
HES SUCH A GOOD SINGER
JERRY OR CHRIS SHOULD BE OUT

DONT VOTE FOR LOOKS
VOTE FOR TALANT

lucky sly is still in!!
sly rawks!!

im still waiting for my one and only
;9:57 PM



i hate my lyf
i falied my combine humanities!!!
now i can't go JC

it sucks

met mr er juz now
den he say there mayb sum changes 2 d humanities marks
he says keep my fingers crossed
yuuppz

i was nt in a realli good mood today larz
firstly cuz of my combine humanities
den also cuz of sth else
............... ................ ................

i feel lyk i should nt hav made up wif them
i was gettin used 2 my lyf
y did i try so hard 2 get back wif them
den they quarrled
i was stuck in d middle
den they made up
i feel lyk im nt part of them anymore
i juz feel tt way
i lyked my lyf b4
low profile
sittin by myself in class
after sch straight away go hm
noone 2 talk to
i was gettin used to it

i dunno larz
mayb im juz too sensitive
mayb i think too much

3 more weeks 2 Os
soo fast

i met him after skool today
he ask mi 2 chill
cuz i told him i failed my humanities
he was nt bein very helpful larz
tt pissed mi off further

at least now nt soo bad larz
my anger is pretty mild now
haha

yest din watch sly on SI
cuz i had tution
2nite muz watch d results show
= )
sly...
u rawk my world!!

" happiness depends upon ourselves "
Aristotle


im still waiting for my one and only
;4:09 PM


Thursday, October 07, 2004

juz had tution
tution teacher kept naggin
but hey
her naggin paid off
i gt 69 4 chem!!!
hahaha

i was on d verge of cryin 2day
evil ppl kidnapped mi
samdreaconstingg
make mi stay back wait 4 him
i din wanna wait
cuz i dun see d point in doin so
he doesnt lyk mi
its final

mummy pissed mi off early in d mornin
so went 2 skool in a pissifyin mood
den mr er din cum
so had 2 free periods 2day

every1 juz bullys mi
athiyah called mi small woman
den punch mi summore
grab mi hand so tight
i looked lyk a lobster
my other gurlfrens bully mi
by takin all my stuff so i cant go hm
AHHHHHHHH
= (
sobx*

forgeddit

i used 2 b mean too
i used 2 treat frens lyk tt too
its probably retribution

i accept my fate

tml gettin back ss marks
its gonna determine my lyf 4 next yr
had a hard time tryin 2 convince mummy daddy
i wanna go trinity collage next yr
daddy says we will see how
mummy say i go there 3 mths den will gt pregnant and hav 2 cum back
argh
i cant believe she thinks her own daughter is soo cheap

pffffffffffffffffffffffffffffft

im still waiting for my one and only
;9:49 PM


Wednesday, October 06, 2004

early 1 mornin while u were asleep
i woke up saw u and started 2 think
i was searchin for wat i've already found
what we dun noe sumtimes we fear
and wat we dun see sumtimes its near
now i realize i wanna settle down

oh i wanna noe wat its lyk
i wanna feel wat its lyk
i wanna noe wat its lyk to b loved
i wanna noe wat its lyk
i wanna feel wat its lyk
i wanna feel wat its lyk to b loved

so sick and tired of d dating scene
same old ppl ain't nothing changed
i was wif my frens almost every nite
i can't understand wat i feel im missin
its lyk runnin through a maze
i need u open up and put my pride aside
i wanna feel ur light shine on me
i wanna put my heart sumthing i believe
its lyk a gift tru god i hope tt u can see
that i wanna be

gt dis frm a song
its realli meaningful
= )

gt back all my results except ss
shit man
hope can go CJC

he came and talk 2 mi today
he ask mi y i so sad
dunno lehz
i was thinkin he muz find mi realli irritatin cuz i always msg him
lol

samdrea
chill larz
sam u wun go ITE
= )
hav faith
athiyah too
all my darlingggs
we all work hard together

gambatte!!


im still waiting for my one and only
;6:37 PM


Tuesday, October 05, 2004

i screwed up my lyf
final

stupid idiot
i told u i could nt go JC
u say nvm
can go poly
AHHHHHHHHHHH
if u were standin in front of mi i would hav strangled u

ok
bio C5
geog 25/50

woke up dis mornin
voice sounded funnie
now im blowin my nose every 5 sec
argh

i asked shi yah
he said i still might b able 2 go CJC
dunno man

sick ppl can't think much
update ltr or tml

im still waiting for my one and only
;7:08 PM


Monday, October 04, 2004

call todae a dae full of surprises

gt A2 4 phy
was expectin a B
B3 4 chem
was expectin a A
D7 4 add mth
was expectin a C
A2 4 eng and e mth was expected

zhi hao [ tution klass guy ]
gt 6 pts 4 prelims
ltk wtf!

msg my chem tutor 2day bout my chem marks
she was lyk diao wen i told her i gt so close A2
den i had all d facts but nva answer properly
lol

told him i gt D7 4 add mth
den he still laf
guys r juz soo mean!
sobx*
he say muz work harder
put in more effort
yeah i will

chin wengclera says wif my marks i can make it into trinity
i realli wanna go
but dunno wat r mummy daddy thinkin
dunno wats in their mind
actually
apart of mi dun wanna go
cuz i will miss alot of ppl here
dunno larz
see how
16 & 17 is d open house
so wait till den
den we see how
= )

dreamt i threw d ring sutrisno gave mi
into d river
lol
cant believe it either
i hope tt's a good sign

tml gettin back bio
mayb geog & ss too
damn

lyf is lyk tt
we juz hav 2 accept it
((((((((((((((((((((((((:

im still waiting for my one and only
;10:17 PM


Sunday, October 03, 2004

juz woke up
hav been watchin tv d whole day
last day to slack
lol
ltr gonna watch tv again
gt darling on tv!!
= )

i dun wanna go back skool tml
gettin back results
i betta pray hard tonite
lol

was thinkin of him today
dunno y i still think of it
its lyk impossible
gt dis quote frm cheok liong
his msn nick
" love makes the world go round
no wonder people in love cannot think straight "
how tru

was thinkin of writin sutrisno a letter
dun think i will
i shall juz type it here
pretty lazy
athiyahdreasam
u guys can juz relate it 2 him

its great to see u happy again
i kinda miss tt laughter and smile
every1 wans 2 b happy
wif d one they love
looks lyk u found urs
i realli wish u & lia all d best
nice gurl
i realli lyk her
[ betta repeat in case ppl say stuff ]
as 4 us
mayb wen time has healed all d wounds
tt's d time we can b frens again
i've moved in lyf
but d wounds r juz too deep

wanna take dis time 2 say sth 2 john oso
sam tell him k
i dun think i givin him my new blog add

sorry things did nt work out between us
go find ur happiness
dun dwell on d past
who noes
mayb next time
10 yrs down d road
we would b together
so no matter wat
dun giv up on ur lyf
= )

2 all my frens
esp athiyahdreasam
thanks guy 4 everythin
4 bein here wif mi all dis while
i noe i can b a pain in d ass sumtimes
lol
but thanks 4 still stickin wif mi
bout 1 more mth 2 Os
lets all work hard together!!
nt forgettin my 856 darlings
melrellasarah
all d best!
jia you!!

5 more hours and countin
2 becomin a slavee 2 my books again

im still waiting for my one and only
;6:12 PM


Saturday, October 02, 2004

ok evil mii
im livin off sum1's wireless internet
so im lyin down on d bed typin dis
usin lap top*

slack slack slack
= )
soo proud of myself

firstly

tinggggg

happie burfday!!
may all ur wishes & dreams cum tru!!
muackx*

tingg
i dun wanna think too much larz
i noe is nt gonna happen
u noe it
he noes it too

watched tv d whole morinin
woke up at 930
mummy called so i had 2 get up
or nt i would slp longer
= )

2nite gt my fav show again
weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

too bad
its onli gonna last till sunday
cuz monday back 2 muggin
den monday gettin back results summore

dunno man
how will my prelims turn out

shall nt think to much

think postive
.......... .............. ............

im still waiting for my one and only
;2:08 PM


Friday, October 01, 2004

time pass so fasttttttt

last day of prelims
f**k my a mth paper larz
left lyk 15 marks blank
cuz i din hav enuff time

gonna slack until sunday
den monday full swing ler

2day damn drama man
lol

mijia lin went sam hm
cuz jia lin wanna go see sam cats
den drea took d ball den went CC meet d guys first
den mijia linsam went down 2 mac 4 lunch
outside mac
saw sth which we wernt suppose 2 see
shall nt type here*
den heard drea wallent & hp got stolen
omg
den samjia lin went police post accompany drea
while i stayed wif alvin
den ltr police came mac

wateva it was
it was juz damn drama larz

den drea mummy found mi
den she found out
den went police station oso

after make police report and everythin
cuz d suspect who took drea stuff was a gangster frm our skool larz
bloddy bastard!!

so drea left wif mummy

den left misamjia linconstingg
i left awhile 2 go meet alvin
den wen i came back they all were lafin lyk mad
den sam explain 2 mi
haha
dis old indian guy
came over 2 them
and scolded them
cuz they were lafin veri loud
den call them public nusience
called them bloody bitchs
den oso threaten 2 pour water on dem summore
hahaha
lucky i nt there
or nt i confirm screw d guy up

hahaha

den came hm
watch tv
slp
eat dinner
den watch SLY on sin. idol
OMG
beverly & jessea r out!!!
actually quite good larz
lyk tt sly gt no competiton
evil mi*
hes juz damn kawaii lorz
((((((((((((((((:

tml gonna rot at home again
thinkin of goin watch movie
but dunno if can lehz
my hands r itchin 2 buy stuff
haha

every1 says we r a perfect couple
i dun think so
he doesnt even lyk mi
its lyk impossible

dun wanna think too much larz

ruins my mood onli

tml tingg burfday

happie burfday mei mie!!!

= )

im still waiting for my one and only
;11:10 PM